Travel escapism is a very real thing, let me tell you my experience. I’m not sure where this is headed, but I feel very much compelled to share with you all what’s been going on and what’ been going on in my mind for the past couple of weeks.
The last time I posted something was last July, a practical post on how to be a good house guest, which I hope you all enjoyed and found some value in that. Since then, coming back from an amazing trip in Ireland visiting my friend and discovering Dublin, Galway and the Cliffs of Moher, left me with many lasting impressions that went beyond the amazing memories. I had a list of ideas to write about travel related to Dublin and the places I had visited based on my experience, but I realized that there were certain blocks coming up making it hard to sit down and write the ideas down in post format.
So, what’s been going on?
When I arrived back from Ireland, I realized the similar sensation of coming back to the States after a trip; wishing my time abroad could have been extended, no surprise there. However, it was still a little bit different from other times. It wasn’t quite reverse culture shock, as I was not in Ireland for a substantial amount of time that would have allowed for reverse culture shock to occur. It was a feeling of regret of putting myself through this again. Going away for a trip, feeling liberated, like anything good could happen, at my happiest walking foreign streets and meeting new people. Then upon coming back to the States, I realized I couldn’t keep doing this.
Specifically, I realized I couldn’t keep kidding myself that I was happy in my current work/life routine. I thought deeply about this, and came to the realization and that I was now using travel as a way to escape from this reality. Travel escapism. I found out that more people had experienced travel escapism based on this video by one of my favorite YouTubers. Here she explained that she realized how travel was a form of escapism from the real things that needed the most attention in her life. Through this, I became aware that we have areas in our lives that need adequate attention and work to get to the root of why we feel unhappy, and that it was happening to me. In my case, rather than dealing with my unhappy view of my work/life situation, I escaped it by going somewhere temporarily.
I saw that I wasn’t truly happy in my current job. I wasn’t feeling fulfilled by the 9-5 work style. I didn’t have time to work on passion projects enough to make them into passion careers, and that was not ok with me. It felt like everyday was groundhog day, and I was repeating the same routine, commute, conversations, and frustration for feeling like I had no time left after 5pm to do what I wanted to do. Life became predictable. With these feelings about my current life situation, I became aware of certain habits that came out when I felt this way. My immediate reaction was to look up flights because travel makes me happy (as we may not be surprised around here).
However, I noticed after being more aware of my actions one big aha moment: If I really loved to travel, and I kept admiring people online that made their dream lives happen by creating their dream jobs, why would I just settle and watch them if that was what I wanted for me as well? Well, because of the fear of not being able to achieve this lifestyle that others had. There was an irony to all of this. The more I stayed in this current work/life situation, the more I felt myself “settling” and therefore I felt like I wanted to travel to temporarily fix this real issue. But that’s not what travel should be; an escape, at least, from the current physical reality of life. It’s like running away, but I didn’t want to continue that.
I didn’t realize that I had created the limited belief in my head that If I remained at this job, I could afford travel. It had become a cycle of belief that in order to travel, I had to stay at this job, and that the more I stayed at this job, the more I traveled because I wanted to escape it, because I could. And I masked this all with ” I just love to travel!” This was a moment I decided that I didn’t want travel to become this for me. In addition, I had created another limited belief that If I left to start my own business or own career ventures, travel opportunities wouldn’t come by as often, financially anyways.
I completely disregarded my dream life and dream job and with this, the potential that these opportunities could create for me to get to a point of traveling and working anywhere on my laptop. I didn’t do anything about it because I was afraid to actually make that happen. Instead of rewriting that limiting belief I had created, I was setting and therefore escaping (literally) through travel in my mini paid but short vacations that my job allowed me to go on.
And just to be clear, this is more of the travel I did when I was in the 9-5 life, not the other travels previous to this.
So, what did I do?
Though I was and am grateful for the professional development I had at my job, the amazing coworkers I got to see day in and day out, I decided to quit my 9-5 job. It has taken me some work to get to this realization, and figuring out the root of this feeling of regret that I mentioned earlier. I kept putting myself in a position of having a taste of the “what could be” but then taking it away from myself when I had to come back to the States. My trip to Ireland was kind of the final straw and along with some amazing coaching, I was able to get some clarity. Clarity with other areas of my life, but this was one that came up in the work I was doing. I felt the fear of truly going against what I’ve been conditioned to think: work for a company or organization, and take a couple vacations occasionally; basically build your life around a 9-5 desk job with the works.
What does this mean going forward?
So, with all this being said, it’s not to say that I don’t like travel anymore as I used to. If anything, I understand myself more and my relationship with travel. I see travel not as escapism, but as a way of life. A pure enjoyment of life in motion and constant learning. I absolutely love it ❤️ – and I am not saying that I still didn’t enjoy all those trips that I did while I was working my 9-5 job. More so I see one of the big reasons why I made the action to leave. I wanted to continue to see the world and learn from other cultures, but I also really wanted to leave my current work life situation and not do anything deeper to fix that. A big reason why I took a small break and made the decisions that I have made, have been because I want to seriously pursue this lifestyle: Something of a Digital Nomad meets world expat. I’ll figure out the actual name for this later 😆
I have left my 9-5 job with the mindset of simply closing this income source to make way for other bigger, and more creative income sources that allow me more flexibility. Doing the mindset shifts, rewriting my limiting beliefs, and taking inspired action; educating myself, sharpening and crafting my skillset, reaching out to other like minded people, coaching, and the big one; feeling confident in myself, I have already been able to attract clients and work opportunities. I am so grateful, and I know that this is what I am meant to do at this point in my life.
So, today on my birthday, I am gifting myself with being more open about these kinds of things on my blog. My blog is dedicated to travel, but it’s also dedicated to the personal growth that happens when we step outside our comfort zones. It’s not the easiest thing for me to open up about my life and challenges, especially because I don’t know who reads this and i’m an overall private person. However, I know that there’s some value in this, and that there are others who are going through similar situations. A lot of good can come out of this, it may resonate with one of you, and it may be what you need to hear. If that’s the case, it’s worth it for me. Please let me know in the comments below what you think and if this is relatable to you.
More to come on this subject and this transformation. I do still have content on Ireland that I would still love to share with you, but before I published that, I wanted to check in on a more personal note to let you know where I’ve been at, and what’ been on my mind 🙂
Happy fall, travel bugs.